when you belong in a group and you fell in love with somebody in that group... try not to... because if it didn't work... the coming events will be disastrous... and you will feel the worst feeling ever... that's why friends are called as such... nothing more or nothing less... believing it's possibility is hypocrisy... i did... i'm wrong... i know now... therefore... i'm living the curse... and so be it... unfortunately i wouldn't want it any other way... i don't blame my friends... because they are such wonderful people... and yes... they are people, human beings who can be emotional, opinionated, pretentious, and defensive... in fact i don't blame no one... i just wish that things would just go back as what was WAS with my so called friends... i know it won't be... atleast not anytime soon... that's why it's a wish... i'm still living the curse...