it's holy wednesday..
of holy week...
of lent...

and i haven't been a good christian so far... technically i only have a few days left to be one...
i studied in a catholic school so i know religious practices... and i pretty much follow them... if not all of them... well, i'm not the rebel kind so following is my thing... and my family is always been the religious type... that made it easier...

my concern is that... i've been doing nothing...
i supposed to be a herbivore during fridays... and i've been the usual carnivore all season...
and starting monday... i was trying to not to eat one meal of the day and i just can't because it seems that my appetite became higher than it ever was... and i always wish that i eat a lot to add me some pounds... it became my dilemma... does it have to be this hard?? so i thought maybe it's a devil's work... and boy! i admire those who can resist this evil temptations... for apparently i didn't... but i will still try...

another practice i should be doing is performing good deeds... well, i've been cleaning all rooms in the house including the comfort room... i just don't know if it counts for a good deed... i can't afford a charity work so i hope it did...

one more, though like fasting with foods... sacrificing a not so important thing as a respect for what Jesus went through during HIS crucifixion... and this one i can proudly say that i'm doing... i'm using my cellphone passively... and doesn't buy anything out of the basics...

it has been said that nothing beats a genuine prayer during lent season... but this practices became traditions for a reason... although it's a lot greater if we can do this all year long but we can't let Jesus die for a longer period of time right?... so it's better to keep it this way...
but the praying should be done 365 days per year whether in need or not...
lent or not...
GOD should always be the center of our lives...