stil emotional...
but no crying anymore...
been cleaning the house all day everyday to forget...
but it never worked...
what sucks about forgetting is that it's impossible specially when you try to because the fact that you are trying makes you remember... ergo not forgetting, not at all...
but it will come...
i'm taking it one day at time...

i found this song since the start of now ended so you think you can dance....
an exit song of male dancers who got the lowest votes every week...
at first i like it because of it's melody... but later when my itunes played it from time to time, i find myself singing along with it almost everyday only to find out that it's giving me a message...


On Your Own - Green River Ordinance

Watchin the time go the second hand is movin to fast
Who ever thought that it ever really ever would last
And if your conscience weighs a little heavy tonight
Maybe you'll find it maybe you'll find
Nobody told you that nothin plays out like it seems
Twenty years now runnin scared of all of your dreams
Is it everything you thought it would be

When you come back I'll be alright
On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
but you carry on and on and on
On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
But you carry on and on and on

Past is past you never really gave it a shot
To survive with your one last shot in the dark
And if your conscience weighs a little heavy tonight
Maybe you'll find that
Empty boxes on the stairs
Remind you that there's no one there
Is it everything you thought it would be
You'll see

When you come back I'll be alright
On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
but you carry on and on and on
On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
But you carry on and on and on

You gotta go you'll never know
Just how it all will turn out
Forget whats gone
The western turn leads no doubt

On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
But you carry on and on and on

On and on and on

On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
but you carry on and on and on
On your own again
Back to where it all began
The phone don't ring
And the tears they fall
But you carry on and on and on

(You carry on and on and on and on)
You gotta go
(You carry on and on and on and on)
You gotta go
(You carry on and on and on and on)
You gotta go
You gotta go
You gotta go

after singing...
my itunes shuffles and play the following...

i gotta feeling - BEP
i know you want me (calle ocho) - pitbull
jump - flo rida feat. nelly furtado
love game remix - lady gaga feat. marilyn manson
press it up - sean paul
we are golden - mika
take me on the floor - the veronicas
sabotage - kristinia debarge
let's get crazy - cassie feat. akon
sexy bitch - david guetta feat. akon
i wanna go crazy - david guetta feat. will i am
gettin' over - david guetta feat. chis willis
straight through my heart (soldier down) - BSB
g-get up and dance - faber drive
battlefield remix - jordin sparks
body control - leighton meester
new perspective - panic! at the disco
ignorance - paramore
she wolf remix - shakira feat. j. rockwell
love drunk - boys like girls
love rocket - chris brown
she do it on me like - chris brown

i can go on and on listing my playlist...
my point being...
they are all up beat...

so after a sad song...
comes the continuous flow of energy...

and so i say and i believe...

its gonna be ok... da doo-doo-mmm JUST DANCE!!!